So I was thinking today and realized I want to have place to put my thoughts down. So here we go......
I have a life of total confusion. I married my husband knowing that I loved him and that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. Little did I know how hard it would be. I thought that since we got sober together, and we both dealt with our lowest part of our lives together, that it would be a lot easier. Man I was wrong. I never realized how moody he was and that he changes constantly. We go through months of perfect love and then out of no where he turns into a total ass! I have the hardest time dealing with these changes. But I do cause I love him more than anything else. Well besides my kids! But I have seen how horrible it can be and I know I can deal with these changes and mood swings. I think we married way too fast and I am reminded of that every day by his family. I sometimes do have regrets about not giving him more time. I never thought three years difference could be that big of a deal. We have a great daughter together along with my first child. He is an amazing dad and I could never express how much I truly appreciate this. I love you honey!
I am so sick and tired of being the object of people's conversations. It seems to me when certain people are feeling down about themselves, they turn around and try to put me down. I have a horrible self esteem and I wish they would realize this! I hate to be fun of and I extremely hate when they try to make me feel stupid. Please stop people. I love to be told I look good and that I am attractive and I just. don't hear it enough! Oh and please people try to keep your thoughts to your self! Ok so I am done bitching and now I am going back to relaxing and drinking my rum and coke
Bubbie here again...
ReplyDeleteOh, Sweetie, I am sorry other people say things to make you feel bad. You ARE beautiful - both inside and outside. You are loved by so many people. Try your best to remember that those who have nothing better to do with their lives than to make others feel bad are worse than losers. They have no life of their own. How pathetic that they should attempt to drag people down into their own misery. Don't fall for it. Just remember that you are blessed and hang on to that. They can all go to hell.